Sunday, December 16, 2012

Pisang & Hati

Maryam, guru kelas Tadika menganjurkan satu permainan yang sungguh menarik untuk murid-muridnya. Setiap murid diminta membawa beg plastik yang berisi pisang yang tertulis nama orang yang paling mereka benci ke kelas pada esok hari. Jadi, jumlah pisang yang perlu dibawa bergantung kepada jumlah orang yang dibenci. 

Keesokan harinya, setiap murid membawa beg plastic berisi pisang masing-masing. Ada yang membawa tiga biji, ada juga lima biji dan paling banyak lapan biji. Semuanya sudah ditulis nama orang yang paling mereka benci. 

“Sekarang simpan pisang tu. Jangan lupa bawa ke mana sahaja kamu pergi selama seminggu. Inilah permainannya. Selepas seminggu, kita akan tahu keputusannya” beritahu Cikgu Maryam. Kanak-kanak tersebut menyimpan pisang masing-masing di dalam beg. Hari demi hari berlalu, pisang tersebut mula berbintik-bintik dan akhirnya menjadi busuk . 

Kanak-kanak itu mula merungutdan marah. Mereka tidak menyukai permainan itu lagi kerana selain beg berat, badan berbau busuk. Ada yang menangis, enggan meneruskan permainan. 

Seminggu berlalu, pagi-pagi lagi murid-murid Maryam sudah bersorak. Permainan sudah tamat. Tidak ada lagi beban dan bau busuk yang perlu dibawa. 

“Okey semua, apa rasanya bawa pisang dalam beg ke sana ke mari selama seminggu?” tanya Cikgu Mayam. Semuanya serentak mengatakan mereka benci permainan itu. Mereka hilang kawan, sering diejek dan terpinggir. Lebih teruk lagi, terpaksa tidur, makan, mandi, bermain dan menonton TV dengan bau busuk. 

“Itulah sebenarnya yang berlaku kalau kita simpan perasaan benci pada orang lain dalam hati. Bau busuk kebencian itu akan mencemari hati dan kita akan membawanya ke mana saja kita pergi. Jika kamu sendiri tidak boleh tahan dengan bau pisang busuk hanya untuk seminggu, cuba bayangkan apa akan jadi kalau kamu simpan kebencian sepanjang hidup kamu” beritahu Cikgu Maryam. 

Maryam mengingatkan anak muridnya supaya membuang jauh-jauh perasaan benci daripada membebani hidup. Kemaafan adalah yang terbaik. 

Menyayangi lebih baik daripada membenci…

Sunday, March 25, 2012

.:: Shuting Down ::.

Lately rase mcm sangat sibuk dan selalu tak sempat nak update blog.

"Blogging is a part of my life, my present and my past. It's all about heart and feeling. But now i feel like to shutdown my blog. I don't know why. I think because i don't have feeling to update about my past and present anymore. There's nothing to share and nothing to write because i have nothing into my heart and nothing to feel. Good Bye Follower."

dan mungkin juga itu satu alasan sahaja.. =)

Sunday, December 25, 2011

.:: Wishlist 2012 ::.

Iphone 4s



MacBook Pro

Adidas Vespa

Krabi Island, Thailand
My last wish is...
Hope SHE's come back..

Saturday, December 24, 2011

.:: 2011 - Kenangan atau Sejarah ::.

Sesuatu yang tidak dijangka pasti akan meninggalkan sejarah pada diri kita. Namun ianya mungkin juga akan menjadi kenangan selama-lamanya. Hanya kita yang boleh memilih samada ianya akan dijadikan kenangan mahupun sejarah dalam hidup kita. Seandainya kita memilih kedua-duanya pastinya ia tidak akan dapat kita lupakan sampai bila-bila pun.

Sesuatu yang kita alami dalam kehidupan kita pasti akan menjadi kenangan selamanya. Mahupun ianya pahit atau manis ia akan tetap menjadi ingatan pada kita. Kenangan memang sukar untuk kita lupakan kerana ianya adalah sebahagian daripada perjalanan hidup kita. Namun begitu, setiap kenangan pasti akan berlalu dan ditambah dengan kenangan-kenangan yang akan datang.

Tahun 2012 bakal menjelma dan 2011 bakal meninggalkan kita. Apa pun yang pastinya kita akan meninggalkan 2011 dengan rela atau pun tidak. Terpulanglah pada diri kita mahu menjadikan 2011 sebagai Kenangan atau Sejarah dalam diari hidup kita semua.

Monday, November 21, 2011

.:: Bila Ada Yang Sayang ::.

Bila ada yang sayang, jangan lukai hatinya,
Bila ada yang cinta, jangan kamu titiskan air matanya,
Bila ada yang menanti, pastikan kamu kembali,
Bila ada yang setia, lakukan yang sama,

Bila dia banyak berkorban untuk kamu, hargailah dan jangan lukakan hatinya,
Bila dia pergi, kejarlah dia selagi merasa dia bererti,
Kerana bila dia tiada di sisi, barulah nanti kamu akan sedar betapa besar pengorbanannya,
Janganlah kamu mensia-siakan insan yang benar-benar ikhlas mencintai diri kamu.
Dia mencintaimu kerana kamu adalah kamu.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

.:: Marriage Or Not ::.

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

Sunday, November 6, 2011

.:: With U ♥ ::.

"I always be with YOU"

♥ JoDoH ♥

Jika kamu memancing ikan. Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu. Janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja. Kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu & mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga, setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang. Setelah ia mulai menyayangimu, hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya. Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja. Kerana dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu & mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu...

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada, jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya & janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh, cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu. Apabila sekali ia retak, tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula. Akhirnya ia dibuang. Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya, mungkin ia masih dapat digunakan lagi...

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, terimalah seadanya. Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya & janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa. Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan, bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. Akhirnya kamu kecewa & meninggalkannya. Sedangkan, jika kamu memaafkannya boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan terus hingga ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi, yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu... Mengenyangkan, Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain..?? Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan. Kelak, nasi itu akan basi & kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Lalu kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan, yang pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu. Menyayangimu, Mengasihimu, Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba membandingkannya dengan yang lain..?? Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan kelak, Kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain. Lalu kamu juga yang akan menyesal...

.:: Alone ::.

" I can't promise to fix all your problem but I can promise You won't have to face it ALONE "